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| So its been a while since I last posted but things have been so hectic and crazy that being able to post has had to wait. Well now that I'm posting now lets see where I need to update..My Behaviour change group has come to its end(thank G-d) and I found out thru the insurance that I can schedual a surgical date for the end of february or wait and schedual in March.. I'm very very excited about that but nervous at the same time!! there is so very much to do and not really enough time to do it all....But in the end I know that this will be the best thing for me and for my life.....within the next few weeks I get to re-enroll @ BCC and will hopefully get to make it into the RN program!! I have 3/4 of my work done its just a matter of completing the nursing classes and my sciences, while working and everything else. I know that in the end it will all be worth it and the doors that will open will be astounding:) | | |
| i'm sure there comes a time in everyones lives where they question who they are and what their "religous" beliefs are...now as some may know...Jason and I don't share alot of the same beliefs, My M.I.L is Jewish and well I'm not. My marriage to Jason was kept as neutral as we could I mean we did the breaking of the galss and a Jewish marriage contract (that now hangs on a wall) and I got my unity candel. But it seems the new "issue" is how will we raise our children?!?! OMG!! We don't even have kids yet!! 1st of all when we have children they will be exposed to both their parent's faiths, and secondly when we do have children we have decided that for elemenatry school they will attend a christian school, and when they reach jr. high school we will address their academic futres then. Jason has no problems with me taking our children to a church of my choosing thats fine with him. so you see we have already worked things out for our future children...on another note I was driving home from work today and I couldn't help but notice the beautiful colours of fall and how perfectly painted they are. It made me stop and think about how much we all take for granted and how simple life could be if we only trusted in G-d and didn't try and muck it up on our own!! my 4 week behaviour change group has begun this week and there are 6 of us in group...we all have our own reason's and stories for being there but at the same time we all have a common goal...and that is to change our lives for our selves and our families. all i know is its a long road ahead and i cna't wait for it to be over.....5-6months to go!! | | |
| Now I hate to feel like I'm bitching over something so wonderful as having a baby....but there are times when I feel like I'll never hae the family that I want. A Friend of mine and Jason's recently had their first baby earlier this month...a beautiful baby boy. now the funny(not ha-ha funny) thing is that they got married in July of last year, after dating for 9 months or so. And when I found out this spring that they were pregnant it was because they needed to find ,buy and be moved into a house be4 the baby was born. and then I get the taunt that at least they finally beat Jay and I at something. since when did having babies qualify as something to compete in?!?!? Now the funny part is the guy(Dan) and I have been friends since I started dating Jason 8 years ago, his new wife, can't stand me cause she thinks I "like" her husband as more than a friend(did I jump a time warp back to high school?) Granted in high school I wanted to date my friends brother...but that didn't happen,I doubt he noticed I was alive....anywho....so not for lack of trying Jay and I have been working on starting our own family....due to the aformentioned post I'm unable to get pregnant right now so the whole baby thing is a sore spot for me, now I know that it will happen on G-d's time table and not mine, but sometimes it gets to me just a little bit. anywho on my way to do some errands and stuff. | | |
| after some much needed time off and lotsa time spent in prayer and talking with family and friends I have decided to do the 6 month preparations for Gastric Bypass surgery. Its been 7 long years of trying to diet and lose weight that I gained due to a medication I was on for awhile....I've been thinking about this for the last year, well more since I met with the Endocrinologist who said if I don't lose the weight , and I quote " you won't be able to get pregnant!" There are many things in this life that I wish I had control over but this is one of them and I intend to do what I can to be able to have children of my own and to be able to play with them.....also to be healthier and happier with myself. In my last few months of ephianies(sp?) I have decided to go back to school and finish my degree and get my RN License!! Jason and I figured out that I have 1/2 the course work done and only have 2 years left to go...sigh. Jason and I have been married for just over a year now and I'm still figuring things out and I've given up on trying to please everyone and working on just making a good life for Jason and I. We spent our first anniversary in New Hampshire at my aunt and uncle cottage in New Durham on Merrymeeting Lake , it was soo nice to get away and be able to have time to just us:) I really couldn't have asked for a better man in my life. Although there are time I sit and wonder what would have things been like had I take a different path while still in high school. But I figure that this is where Gads path has lead me and I just have to wait on his time table.... well with that all said i'm gin to get food and go get an oil change:) | | |
| New Pictures have been posted most are old pictures of family and friends...update is as follows : we have purchase our wedding bands and ordered tuxes. bought champagnge glasses for Jason and I. Bought our air fare. inivations will go out the first week in July and hopefully all resposes will be in by the first week of August. then comes crunch time.....Dresses should be in sometime in July along with our Rings and our guest book has come in so I have to pick that up. Sigh moving along smooth and w/o bumps thats how i'm enjoying this!! More to Follow....check out the new pix!! | | |
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